Brand New Start

I imagine if I have one chance to start my life from the beginning all over again, would I use it , if there is such thing , I will save it till I take all the chances and walk all distances , I may go with out fears of wasting time over bad experiences and wrong choices , I could jump into seas , I could change my mind and climb mountains.

I could listen to what ever my heart says , I could leave my common sense in a hole and forget the place , I would be braver I wouldn’t compromise my happiness .

I will save the chance of return till the late end and I will not have the time to use it then, I will die in peace as a child with a saved chance and with out regrets .

Eve,

A dream About You . .

When I fall sleep I always dream of you . .
I know it doesn’t make sense . . as I think in many things but you . .
So why your fantasy takes me away. .?! It is supposed to be my world . . !!
were the symbols are talking my language . .
Why they are always connected with your soul . . And Why I am always dreaming of you . . . !!

When I dream of you . . it seems so real, so wired, so unexpected . . . !!
I can almost touch you . . . !!
They say a dream is a wish your heart makes . .
Could this be true?!

I am supposed to spend my dreams with Mr. Right. .
Could you be the one . . . ??! O God this is not fair . . .
you don’t even care . . .
It can’t be you . . .!! It can’t be you . . .!!

I wish that I could find a way to let you know . .
You are the only one who have the key. .to unlock my mystery . . .
But You make it so uneasy when we start to talk . .
How could you be so promising in my dreams . . And so impossible in reality?!
Is it really you . . ?!

Sometimes I sense it is meant to be . . Somtimes I think that the way we can be together. .
is only in my dreams when I see you . .
or talk to you . . .




RoU,,

Meeting a soul

Meeting you was very strange as if I know you for ages, I didn’t see you before, but deeply inside me you were a friend but don’t know when, I saw a devil or an angel I wasn’t sure then.

I just feel it now the energy of you.

And how strange it was when you starts to talk using language I used to hear , speaking my words , but what is this I can't hear your voice, you don’t use your lips !!

then I look into your eyes ,you took my energy away helpless I was ,you were saying me with words , swimming in my seas , invading the castle of unspoken me.

You took me with you for a walk inside me we played with my old toys and read my books, and how amazing it was, here I kept them , I told my self .

My dear you , making sense in a non sense way ,showering me with answers for questions I don’t say, leaving me confused, is it a dream or help I should scream

I just met the devil,

Then you starts the game the trick we used to play, are you okay? I tried to answer and you were not listening, you were watching me, trying to calm me and how angry I was, I don’t need games.

Then I discovered the lies, some thing in your eyes reflect my soul and I saw me for the first time and i begin to cry , I was not telling the truth , I am so weak but no one shall see this.

Then you left me Confused with the truth, but how lovely and scary seeing my real me, knowing that nothing will be the same,

Days came and went and now I used to play in my castle, opening the door for hope that you may return.

Eve,

me and you , unfair to write one story

how i could start now , from the day i see your name on my screen or the day we begin to talk , or the day you told me that you loved me , or the day i just felt that i cant let you go any more ,

well i think i have to tell you that i never stopped loving you with my heart while my mind still doubting and questioning , for each day i decide to stop loving you i find 10 reasons to fall in love with you again and again . that's for my love to you is so new , for every day a new heart to love you ...

ther was always something about me , knowing for sure that i have many things to give , that my heart is too precious to be given , but with you and for every day i find it not enough. you deserve much more than i could bear to give... and ( i love you) is just so simple and not enough

well i tried to keep my heart for you ,when i was a child the dream of you was my only hope and my weapon , not to give up for the easy soultion was my every day battle and my evrey day wound and pain ,
searching for you in the faces around me was confusing ,painful and hard , but the promise i mad to you in heaven was my only reason to stay strong , to stay a live

i know i didnt realize this truth in the begining , my fears controlled me and you was patient enough to protect me , to know me , to calm me and to give me the power to belive that my life time dream is coming true , with you ...

how could i even thank you , how could i love you more , my heart is so small , well i know you gave me yours befroe , i will love you with both hearts i have , mine and yours ....

Eve ,

You are my heaven

Missing you I sure do, counting the days to come to me filling my emptiness, painting my days with joy, how I could live with out my soul.

I remember my days before you, I was smiling happy shinning full of hope to meet some one like you, and I thought it was a gift to dream with my eyes wide open. !!

When I met you and know that I am trapped in your eyes I realized that all of this was gone for ever, no days no dreams any more , nothing but a waking heart waiting for you ,, ooh how I miss sleep and I miss to wake up much more

Love is so cruel can't stay in a heart with happiness, both are not friends. And he is not a friend of any.

And I had to choose, and I choose your love even with the pain of you away, I feel the taste of days the sour sweet drop of elixir of life.

I wonder for how long I will survive with out you. Suffering the distances, and bearing the hot tears for nights and days ….

I miss your heaven my Adam staying for life time alone in our hearts, magical what love can do with greatest fears, how it could turn loneliness into loveable time.

Ooh my love for you, and I'm still saying it is so cruel!!

I thought love will color my days , I always thought it is a sparkle in the eyes every one can see an extra heart beats pumping blood into your cheeks ,how naive I was.

The sparkle i waited for was a flame burning my heart and the extra beat was a struggle to survive your absence.

Heaven is your presence your smile your kind touch and a look to your eyes worth far much.

Yours Eve ,